This is Our Why
It was only 23 weeks into what we thought was going to be an exciting 9 month journey when our world was flipped upside down. Felicia went in for her normal checkup when the doctor noticed a few things they weren’t comfortable with surrounding her blood pressure and decided to put Felicia on bed rest until our baby came into the world. Little did we know that only a few short hours later Emerson would be joining us. I had received the phone call from Felicia’s mother that they had taken her back for an emergency C-section. The doctors were saying that Emerson’s heart rate had dropped and they rushed in to take the baby.
No more than a few minutes later the staff came out of the operating room with Emerson asking if I wanted to see her and that they didn’t have long and that it didn’t look good. That brief first encounter with Emerson I realized that we had a battle in front of us that I couldn’t do anything about. It was all in Emerson’s and the staff’s hands. She weighed under a pound at 450 grams.We had a lot of ups and downs the first couple of weeks. Most included times we were told to say our goodbyes that there was nothing more the staff could do, our responses never wavered, “we won’t say good bye we are taking her home she is a fighter”.
Holding Emerson for the first time, “skin to skin” or “Kangaroo”, was the most amazing experience I think that Felicia and I have ever felt. Not only for us, but I think that every time we did it was like it energized Emerson to push and fight harder.
After 143 days in the NICU we were able to take Emerson home on a heart monitor and on oxygen, both of which did not last long. We had one scary experience once we came home that required us to call 911. When Emerson aspirated gas drops and began to BRADY. I did what I fortunately had been trained to do which was stay calm and act, I kept her stimulated as she would go in and out of color. By the time the EMT showed up we had her stable but still had them check her out as they were curious themselves what a “micro Preemie” was. After that day we were fortunate not to have any more crazy out of the norm moments.
Emerson has since continued to grow and surpass goals set for her through speech, occupational, and physical therapy. She is still not caught up to her actual age yet, but makes big strides every week. She is going to do big things one day that we are sure of. We are truly blessed to have her in our life. Every day is a gift and her smile is a reminder of what life is really about.
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